TITLE: Girl on the Outside
GENRE: Women's Fiction
The 1920s Hollywood-style Spanish Colonial sits abandoned, waiting for me to pick up its final inhabitant. The moving trucks are gone, Pepsi cans and discarded cardboard litter the yellowing lawn. I crack open the heavy wood door and am met with remnants of unhooked electronics, dangling wires like an octopus on the losing end of a shark attack. Scuffs on the exposed walls make me want to retrieve a paintbrush and touch up the paint.
“Claire?” I call into the silence. The house seems so much larger unfurnished. “Claire? Are you in here?”
There are so many memories that have abandoned this deserted house. I grew up with dreams of a perfect life, but dreams are what you have when you’re young and don’t know better. Dreams are what you have before life kicks your a**.
I always thought I would have my life set by now: a husband, two kids, and a dog. That’s what they teach you when you’re wearing your princess suit. And maybe that’s all my mom knew to teach me. My mom was married right out of college. Had her two kids and lived the life of one of those Real Housewives from Bravo TV. But then Dad died and she didn’t manage her finances. At least for me I’ve always had a back-up plan. For my mom there never was any other plan.
Now I'm left with the chore of fixing our screwed up past.