Let this be my official announcement: I'm going dark.
Normally, June is vacation month for us (which is why I never schedule Secret Agent contests in June). If not vacation, then at least a trip to my parents' home. This year, though, we're not going anywhere.
Long story, but we're just not.
So I'm longing for a break that I'm simply not getting, and it's not feeling too good. Which is why I came to the conclusion that the least I could do is to give myself a PUBLISHING INDUSTRY BREAK.
For at least next week, I won't be on my blog, my Authoress gmails, or Twitter. At the end of the week, I'll see how chipper I'm feeling; I may need a second week. (I'll let you know.)
Important: AUTHORESS EDITS clients: I will be editing, and I will be checking my editing business account. I can't afford to fall behind!
You all know that I have recently attempted to recapture my JOY of writing by returning to my trunk novel for a complete rewrite. At first, it was wonderful. But it hasn't lasted.
I'm going to keep writing it, but it's more of a do-it-when-you-feel-like-it project for me, to remove the relentless pressure I always foist upon myself (it's how I get things done). Frankly, I'm in a hard place that isn't getting easier. I've hit my 8-year mark, and it feels like such a big number.
That's right. I started sending my first, tentative queries to agents eight years ago.
(Okay. I'm a little stuck on how long I've been at this thing.)
And right now I need to get away from the internet's "OMG-I'm-17-and-I-just-signed-a-huge-book-deal" and the "Ever since the crash, agents are only selling one out of ten projects...projects......projects.........projects...........projects............".
*cue dramatic music*
Anyway. I need to soul-search and regroup and find whatever it is I need to find within myself to push through. No one promised me this would be easy, so I'm not going to whine about it. It's just the facts.
Honestly, I'm okay. I AM! I'm sharing my journey with you--being as transparent as I can be while still maintaining anonymity--so that you will be encouraged to KEEP GOING WHEN THINGS GET REALLY HARD.
So press on while I'm away. Remind yourself why you're doing this thing (because you love it, right?). And if you're in a good place right now, SPREAD THE GOOD. Positive attitudes are infectious!
Love and hugs to you all.