TITLE: Against the Blue
GENRE: Young Adult
Harper realizes the impact her twin brother's suicide has had on his best friend Adam.
“No. I don’t.” I tell Adam and follow him to his car.
Ten minutes later, we are on our way up a winding road. Adam hasn’t said a word since he drove out of the school parking lot. I haven’t either. The trees blur together into a green streak outside my rolled-down window as we weave up the base of Kroutter Mountain. He has put on some music and it throbs low in the background. The air feels fresh and clean on my face. Every so often I see Adam’s eyes shift over to watch me. I too, study him when looks back to the road.
Adam Brighton has been a presence in our home since we were kids. He is familiar, comfortable. Always ready with a plan or idea. When we were young, before I wanted a life independent of my twin, the three of us were inseparable. We spent weekends in Adam’s basement playing video games and watching T.V. During the summer, we would bike down to the drugstore and buy candy. When I think back to those days, I remember a bright-eyed kid, ready for anything, bouncing with impatience on our front porch while we pulled on our shoes or a jacket.
But now, as I inspect his face out of the corner of my eye, I can tell that Lucas' death has not been kind to him. There are deep bags under his brown eyes, which look muted, almost dull. His shoulders sag under the heavy weight of our loss and when he catches me looking and smiles, it feels forced. He is hurting too. For some reason, this startles me. I have been so stuck in my bubble of anger and grief, I didn’t once think of Adam.