TITLE: Complex Solutions
GENRE: YA Contemporary
Whether I’m running to remember or to forget, it doesn’t matter.
When I open the front door, the October wind gusts in, wanting to sweep me forward, stirring the hunger in me. The hunger to feel my heart thrum, my muscles pulse, and my lungs burn.
I shake myself out of my thoughts, crouch down, and lace my running shoes.
Bailey sits on the mat, his feathery blonde tail brushing back and forth. I stand, zip my hoodie and grab his lead.
Gram steps into the foyer, her flowered robe cinched tight. She tucks the morning paper under her arm. “Off for your run?”
“Yeah, down to the beach.”
“You’re so much like your mom,” Gram says, her mouth quivering.
Like my mom? How? My motivation? My stamina? Or the way I burn with intensity to feel something real, causing me to destroy?
Stop. Running. The beach.
I shove down the guilt and turn toward the door.
“Is everything okay, Alexandra?” Gram touches my sleeve and I wince, the bandage underneath rubbing against my raw wound. She arches a brow. “You haven’t—”
“No.” I stare at the crimson roses on Gram’s robe.
Outside, the grassy hill is slick with morning dew as I slip-slide to the street. Lying to Gram churns my stomach, but I need her to believe things are better. Or they will be as soon as I start to run, set my mind adrift and forget, before I have to face the day.